Chaotic, Well-Lived

Seek wisdom.

It’s good to be in the club.

This holy, chaotic, well-lived day.

My journal began, “Wow! What a week!”

I have developed the habit of writing Saturday reflections. I spread out my week of hand-written journals and scan my quotes, notes, and thoughts. This week was a lot. Just a lot going on at work and at home. I noticed the words “chaos” and “chaotic” written most every day. But I also notice several notes on how I had been finding strength and courage to live deeply, with discipline amid the chaos, finding the good and the hope buried there in those moments and those days.

I also notice my journals beginning to use the word “holy” to describe my otherwise mundane days. One line read, “...but I enjoyed my chaotic, holy Thursday.” I like that. I like that in that wee, I was able to find joy on a rough day, recognizing that it was indeed holy. Set apart. Uncommon. My disciplined practice of pausing, breathing, and smiling with patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control finds a way to show me the fruit at just the right times. So right now, I would like to say thank you to you, my daily disciplines, and to you, my ability to bounce back from the rough days. And I would like to say thank you to you, my beautiful, chaotic, holy days because these are well lived days. Days I am given opportunities to respond to the chaos and energy and sorrow and joy and pain and love.

On another note, I’ve joined this club. It’s a group of writers who share their work. With me. As with my disciplined practice of pausing, breathing, and smiling, I have a keystone habit of reading and journaling every day. So, I spend time with fellow writers. And though they are much wiser and more accomplished than I am, it’s good to simply be in the club. Listening in on their thoughts. Borrowing some of their wisdom to share in my own writings. Who knows. Maybe someday, someone will invite me into their club of writers they are reading. How wonderful that would be, and how grateful I am to be seeking and finding wisdom in this, my club, as I seek to live out my holy, chaotic, well-lived days in this holy, chaotic, well-lived life.