Not Good, Not Bad, but Definitely...

Do me a favor and don’t read this

I see you’re not listening to me.

I asked for one simple thing, and yet here you are.

I'm warning you, you're not gonna like what you see.

This is a truly ugly start

I’ve been at this for over an hour.

You probably can’t believe that. This?

This is what I have to show for an hour?

It’s the practice

I agree. I can’t believe it’s taken this long either.

But I’m practicing. This is my practice.

The practice of posting. Once a week. Good, bad, or ugly.

This week, the “ugly” wins

I just laughed thinking that someone might actually be here.

Why are you hanging on? What do you think is going to happen?

It started ugly, and it’s hanging in there. Holding firm.

Over three years

That’s how long I’ve been writing these weekly blogs.

Can you believe it? But for some reason, today I'm working with a lemon.

There's no lemonade in sight, but I'll keep squeezing.

I’m learning to battle

Sometimes the writing comes easy.

Sometimes it’s a battle. Today I’m battling.

I can see your lack of surprise now.

The arena is where it happens

And this morning I stepped into the arena.

I hear a bad performance is the arena is better than sitting on the bench.

But sometimes it stings to get kicked in your arenas.

Please don’t tell me you’re still here

I really do hope no one is reading this.

And if you are, I just apologize.

I’m going to keep going here. Hang on if you want.

I’m clearly an imperfectionist

Proof? You're reading it.

I would like to produce a great series of beautiful weekly pieces.

But this week, imperfect and ugly is the name of the game (insert "shrug" emoji).

And that is enough

My muse was a no-show, leaving me here on my own.

What a jerk. But maybe he/she will swing by later. Or next week.

Until then I’d do what I can do and assume that’s enough.

Sometimes the practice is ugly

And “sometimes” is today.

But I showed up and put in the ugly reps.

Maybe next week the reps will be a little more dolled up.

I hope you’ve learned something here

Sometimes you just have to hang in there and do the ugly work.

Today I was faithful to the practice.

Today you should have listened when I boldfaced the first line.

I’m not sure

Should I thank you or apologize for hanging in there.

I don't know, but either way, I’ll be back next week.

Ready or not. Good, bad, or ugly. I'm sorry and thanks!

Photo by Kyle Glenn on Unsplash

Sorry and thanks, Kyle.